Proverbs 3:5

"Trust in the LORD with ALL your heart, and lean NOT on your OWN understanding"

Sometimes life just doesn't seem to make sense when we view it through our human eyes. We can't and don't always see the bigger picture. Things aren't "fair." There are women who struggle each and every day with infertility and/or complications and would give anything to hear the words "Congratulations! You're pregnant with a HEALTHY baby." There are thousands of children all over the world who would love to hear the words "Welcome home. You are loved" and to truly know and experience what it feels like to be part of a family. Recently I have been witness to both of these situations, with each of them leaving me searching for understanding.

I've been following the blog of Renee's pregnancy since she found out she was expecting twin boys. It's so funny how you feel like you are part of someone's life just by reading their story, and before you know it you are on the emotional roller coaster right beside them through the ups and downs of this journey we call "life." My heart was saddened today to learn that her sweet boys are now angels waiting to meet her in Heaven. (You can read Renee's blog here - grab a box of tissues!)

Her story is such a testimony to what a mighty God we serve. It's hard not to read each post and just sense her peace and comfort with the entire situation. Her positive attitude has been such an inspiration to me over the past few weeks. I can only pray that should I ever have to endure a similar situation that I too would handle it with merely half of the grace that Renee and her family have demonstrated.

The other day I was treating a child who is currently in foster care. Initially his foster parents were hopeful to adopt him as their own. However, as time has progressed, more delays have surfaced with lots of questions and very few answers. They are currently in the process of visiting many specialists to determine the underlying cause(s) of his impairments. He is currently unable to hold his head up on his own. It absolutely broke my heart when his foster mom informed me that "if he is going to be an invalid for the rest of his life, then we just can't afford to take care of him." And if that is her outlook on the situation then maybe it is best that they not adopt him. Further frustrating was the fact that she informed me that they had just "passed up" the opportunity to adopt twin girls who are "typically developing." Come on people...we're not talking about picking out puppies here. This child may not only need a little more love, care and attention than a "typical" child, but he deserves all of those things. *HEAVY SIGH*

I think it's awesome that God knew that no matter how hard we try that we will never completely understand, and that we must TRUST in HIM. And so I say..."I will praise you in this storm..."

Praying for Renee, Scott, Shae and their families as they look to Jesus to mend their hearts and rely on family and friends here on earth to hold and comfort them.